‘’If living is to end in pain, incompleteness and nothingness,
it seems a cruel and futile experience for beings who are
born to reason, hope, create and love.’’
I was born as such a being.
Maybe you too and that´s why you´re reading this.
We will, most probably, have lots of things in common.
Life isn´t an easy path when you´re always looking for
answers and reason behind something.
When you´re always hoping for the best thing to happen
and try to see the best in other people.
When you´re trying to find the right path for yourself to
follow. Your life purpose maybe.
Highly sensitive for everything around you.
With every emotion it´s all or nothing
When I´m happy I´m on top of the world, but when I´m
down I feel like.. life isn´t worth it anymore.
I´ve found something that makes living ´like this´ easier.
So.. I know I am like this.
I know what my mind tends to do in certain situations.
For a while I was really busy in my head working on all of
these faults. Changing it.
And yes that’s how I saw it, as faults.
I can tell you that paying too much attention to it is something
that definitely doesn´t work, because it´s ignoring who you are.
It will come back even stronger and will hit you in the face.
We can’t change who we are.
What does work is: let it flow.
Let it all flow, let it happen without thinking about it.
Without forming an opinion about why your head is
thinking a certain way or why you’re feeling a certain way.
Eventually we will also be ready to accept the way we are.
Sometimes I still get angry about why I’m like this.
Why can’t I just let things be?
Living my life without being on a quest to find my life purpose
and my true self.
It comes down to the quote in the beginning. If I would try to
live like that it would indeed be a cruel experience.
I could fool myself for a while, but it would break me down.
I know it will.
Writing this makes me realize I came a long way when it comes
to this subject.
Otherwise I wouldn’t be writing this and sharing it with you right?
There’s still a lot of ‘work’ to do, as in: no work, because I just have
to let it flow. Just letting it all go.
Another thing. When I was in my teen years I was always looking
up songs to fit my state of mind at the moment. I loved doing so
and I think It would be fun to find a fitting song for every blog post
I write and share it with you!
For this post I found the following song:
Audioslave – Be yourself
‘’To be yourself is all that you can do’’